I used to associate trauma with war, torture or accidents. Until I realised that a trauma is EVERY experience that leaves us anxious, scared and scarred. Trauma imprints remain and influence us until they get healed. Most people experience a trauma at some point in their lives. Maybe also you are traumatised? Being stuck in one or more areas in your life can be symptomatic.
Trauma is a situation that is overwhelming or dangerous. It makes you feel helpless, horrified, unsafe and threatened. More subtle forms of shock such as not being appreciated, heard and supported as child, are traumatic. The majority of trauma memories typically link back to our formative years – from birth and childhood to adolescence, for example: fighting parents and their divorce, loss of father and / or mother, abusive caretakers, parents who are not interested in their offspring / are emotionally unavailable and / or physically absent, an environment that bans expression of feelings and creativity, bullying at school.
Other traumata may be linked to sexual abuse, medical intervention and birth difficulties, painful diseases, religious or spiritual cults, loss of a loved one (human or pet), betrayal, robbery, bankruptcy, ancestral burdens or own past life carry overs, collective conflicts, natural disasters, planetary and galactic cataclysms. Also witnessing a disturbing event can be deeply traumatic.
When our personal boundaries are crashed, acute danger or chronic stress occur, then our inner system naturally attempts to cope with it as good as it can. Depending on the situation at hand and own disposition, our basic trauma response is fight, flight, freeze or fawn. Running away / fleeing, aggression / anger, no move / no choice or pleasing / appeasing.
These reactions don’t happen consciously but are part of an automated self-protection mechanism. And although we most likely forget the original shock over time, our body does remember.
We manage a trauma, survive and move on, but at the same time a part of us tends to dissociate and / or deny what happened. This is why each traumatic experience leaves us split to varying degrees.
Unhealed traumata create inner fragmentations and the cut off parts remain isolated and do not develop with the rest of us. For example, if a 5 year old experienced a terrifying event such as abandonment or abuse, it is exactly the dissociated, stuck fragment on the level of the 5 year old which will react again when the old wound gets re-activated later as adult.
We are unaware of the disconnected aspects in us, but in altered states of consciousness (deep meditation or hypnotic trance), we can recall, heal and reintegrate them. If we had trauma at the age of 3, 5, 7 and 12, then we have dissociated parts in us that match those years. These parts bind our energy and hold on to us, indeed like children. They hold us back, and therewith prevent us from being fully embodied, until they get acknowledged (during therapeutic Inner Child work).
While our response was life-saving in the moment of the traumatic event in the past, it leaves a filter behind in us, like an implant, that skews our perception of ourselves and others. Trauma memory imprints lead to misinterpretations of people and situations, as well as inappropriate or alienating behaviour patterns as adult. These typically show in intimate relationships, situations at work or with authorities: stubbornness, sulking, entitlement, crying, jealousy, competition, helper syndrome, anger, rebellion, or withdrawal and emotional numbness. Not to forget narcissist / codependent dynamics.
If we feel emotional charge about something, it is an indicator that we get provoked because something in us is not yet healed, whole and brought to completion (closure). An emotional flashback can be triggered by a situation or event that reminds us of what happened to us in the past. Flashbacks can also be categorised under fight, flight, freeze or fawn. One or a combination of them can pop-up suddenly as an intense, gut-wrenching and confusing episode of fear, toxic shame and / or despair.
What is happening in such a flashback moment feels vivid and very real, because our body system relives some aspects of the original traumatic experience. We feel like on autopilot, and although we cognise over time these dynamics, it can be really challenging to maintain self-control and step out of these waves.
Trauma affects our entire beingness – mentally, emotionally, energetically, spiritually and physically.
This explains why so many adults have unpredictable mood swings, repeated relationship issues, throw tantrums, create a fuss over nothing, and feel entitled to regular entertainment in form of food, toys and travel. Certain aspects of them are like wounded little children that scream for attention, to get finally healed and reintegrated.
And then there are adults who are kind, considerate and compassionate but so easily swayed. And no, naïveté is not cute or adorable. It actually invites exploitation. So does gullibility, which not only reflects a lack of connection to self but also the failure to navigate this reality without getting tricked or manipulated into an ill-advised course of action.
There is a range of additional unconscious strategies that serve to distract from remembering traumatic memories, avoid a sobering life review and release stuck grief. For example, power trips and status chasing via education and career, fitness and body cult, lust and addictions, spiritual identifications and bypassing, shopping and hoarding, and whatever else might serve to have a sense of control, get attention and feel special.
With all the suppressions and distortions going on after a trauma, it doesn’t surprise that longterm effects of trauma can be dis-eases, such as autoimmune disorders, hormonal problem, skin or heart issues, or skeletal / muscular problems.
Disregulations typically attract matching energy phenomena and attachments, such as discarnates and entities, that reinforce and worsen painful tendencies and dysfunctional behaviour. Another challenge in the mix. The good news is that rehabilitation is possible and things can be cleared.
Everyone reacts to traumatic events differently because each person is unique in their ability to handle fear, stress and horror. Though I prefer to avoid labelling of symptoms, I’d like to mention PTSD.
PTSD, post-traumatic stress disorder, is a disregulation with symptoms that can start during chronic stress or during / after a traumatic event. It is characterised by
– recurrent distressing memories (incl. mental convolution, fear loops, nightmares),
– avoidance (denial, social isolation, or submission),
– depression (self-blame, demotivation, emotional numbness, memory loss) and
– physical tension (anxiety attacks, blood pressure issues, nausea, sleep and concentration issues, paranoia, suicidal thoughts).
As the nervous system and brain (neural / electromagnetic circuit, biochemistry, hormones, respiration / oxygenation) play a key role in our responses and regulations, one of the most important keys in trauma healing is to calm down our nervous system, provide structure and a consistent sense of security as well as a nourishing environment.
Right now, we have strong energetics of trauma and terror running on the planet. The chronic stress that has been created for humans especially since 2020 is nothing short of traumatic.
Prolonged social restrictions, loss of human rights (which includes free expression, freedom to move, to be response-able and make self-empowered decisions), business closures, financial and existential uncertainties, fear mongering by msm and decision makers as well as spoon-fed information, contradictions and confusions (gaslighting).
All these are forms of abuse. And people who already carry a lot of trauma imprints, are likely to have their old emotional wounds, subconscious memories and habitual response patterns triggered.
Depending on the level of their self-awareness, they either fall into emotional and physical disregulations and compensations (fear, panic, denial, blind activism, shiny quick fixes etc.), OR they take the opportunity to really slow down, go to the rootcause of their heavy, contracting feelings and heal themselves within.
Trauma is probably the most common issue on the planet. And a subject we understandably rather avoid. But there comes a point when being stuck is more painful than the fear of change.
With this post I’d like to give impulses and context in view of the current world crisis. Which is actually symptomatic for a deeply traumatised, unhealed and unhealthy population. People are so disconnected from their spiritual heart and true divine beingness, that they blindly follow external authorities and cannot sense their own intuitive guidance, let alone summon the courage to act upon the nudges of their higher, spiritual selves.
If there is one key take-away from this post, let it be this: a reminder that life is precious, and sacred. Yes, humans are strong, but they are also sensitive. Much more than we are generally made to believe. We humans are multi-dimensional beings and vulnerable, as far as our physical vehicle is concerned, but also on the most subtle levels of heart and soul.
I wish us all maximum resilience, self-care and self-love – for the benefit of all. May we embody the clarity and discernment to drop all that is false, and re-member what is true and original.