Category Archives: Higher Consciousness

Brain Surgery at Mount Arunachala

This week I had surgery, etheric surgery that is, in Virupaksha Cave on Mount Arunachala in Tiruvannamalai (South Indian state of Tamil Nadu). The natural rock cave is a legendary place where for example Ramana Maharshi stayed several years for self-enquiry and meditation. But before I get into details, let me share a few insights about Arunachala.

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New Paradigms

The following 9 messages just came through. You may connect, feel, assimilate them:

Ignore darkness and disalignment in someone, and focus in a diamond sharp manner straight on their true beingness, their divine delightful core. Rise beyond your mind, ego and painbody constructs. Live and Be your higher self, fully. And connect unwaveringly to the higher self in others.

Stop interpreting negatively, stop fearing and doubting. E.g. stop questioning the love and loyalty of the people close to you.

Don’t even respond to others’ darkness. Don’t waste energy. Hold awareness, discernment and love, but above all, equanimity in the face of their destructive overlays and ignorance. Continue reading

Where is God?

Where is God? How can I connect with the Divine?
And what is the point in connecting anyway?

These questions are not about a white-bearded father figure who towers high above the clouds, but about the subtle force that is greater than every thing and which doesn‘t fit into the parameters of human logic and physical mechanics. The benevolent and powerful intelligence in the universe, which you may suspect exists, or which you may already know and are guided by in your life. We can call it also pure (or divine) consciousness.

The thing is that our connection with supreme source is a normal state of being. It is our inherent birthright. That it is forgotten, doubted and questioned, or seen and sold as something special, just shows how misguided humans are.

Most people live within a fog of limiting beliefs and concepts, based on ancestral, social and religious conditioning, which rule out the possibility of having a divine connection with ease and grace. In addition to this, a numbed nervous system due to an unhealthy lifestyle and lifefocus adds to the dilemma of feeling disconnected. And when the ability to perceive supreme source is blocked, naturally most people doubt its existence (let alone recognise that ‘god’ is in everything and everyone!). Apart from not knowing how to re-activate and finetune their inner perception antennae, they do not even consider it. Continue reading

A Clean Slate – Tabula rasa

In this post I stick again to my own experience, do not quote other sources or generalise my insights as valid truths for other beings. Therefore I won’t begin with ‘we’, but ‘me’.

Over the years I have learned that I am much more than what my rational mind and five senses try to make me belief. The intellect is helpful as a tool to plan, organise, finetune and implement ideas, but every time I re-member aspects of my soul and spirit, and the vastness of existence, a set of rather different antennae of perception is in charge. To give you an example (natural / unaided meditation):

Outside the Universe: The below image is my digital sketch of what I got to see during a meditation, several years ago: I am in a realm that feels like the edge of the Universe. I enter a vacuum-like space – empty yet in terms of consciousness it is ‘pure potentiality’ – and from there I move towards the rim of a funnel-like shape. Looking from that edge into the funnel I see a huge deep space opening in which I find the entire Universe with galaxies and star systems. Upon diving in and focusing closer, I see planets and also Earth, but only as super-tiny far-away dots.
From the vast infinite stillness outside the Universe happens a swift shift and suddenly I am in my bone fibres. Suddenly my awareness travels through them as if they were colonnades or a promenade.
Getting stretched between macro and micro, and being held within a frequency that allows those extremes is on the challenging side for the physical body. Breathing is difficult. Body feels inadequate, too small and dense.
Accepting and holding this space and the contrasts, eventually leads me to an inner state of void, yet it felt as if the Universe, the entire Existence, is in my heart. Like pure infinity and potentiality in me. And me in it.”


I would also like to share an episode from a comprehensive experience in unity consciousness (a decade ago). The inner pictures I received were breathtakingly beautiful, incredibly clear and powerful. I bathed in feelings of unlimited reason-less  joy, love and witnessed the non-stop flow of creativity. It felt like roaming existence on the wings of pure consciousness. I remember how I observed the inner revelation and unfoldment in awe and open mouthed. And then, after this trance-like state, it was really hard to endure the lack of adequate media for expressing what I had discovered. No language, no sound, no picture could convey my experience.

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Ascetic or Exuberant Awakening?


inner void in the awakening

This post is inspired by the ‘intensely tranquil’ inner world of a handful of women who live between Europe and Asia. These women have been purifying themselves spiritually for many years (through sadhana and healing work) and are now in a state of neutral inner silence.

They describe it also as an inner emptiness, an introverted state of being without any wishes or interests, yet awake and present, and connected to nature. They are in a deep quietude and have no impulse to do something, no attachments, no emotions or desires. They feel free from the common object-subject-separations and good-vs-bad-judgements, and have zero resonance with the usual identification models (both the secular and the spiritual). Continue reading

King of Darkness & Goddess of Light

light infusion

In autumn 2017 I witnessed how the King of Darkness begged to be taken to Supreme Source. He was fighting with the Goddess of Light. Reason being, that he wanted to marry her to facilitate his salvation and merger with the Supreme Light.
He cried out in desperation and explained his exhaustion from all the dark work he did for such a long time. He believed that the Goddess was his only bridge to liberation. So he insisted on tying the knot with her. In fact he had been following her and fighting with her over lifetimes.
The Goddess of Light had no interest in marrying him. Understandably. She was weary of all his interferences and sabotage attempts.

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After a Consciousness Shift

1Have you processed a lot recently and made a big consciousness shift very fast? Discomfort does not have to be, but can be, a part of your journey. Do you feel lost and empty now? Do you have a lack of orientation while your subtle bodies and physical body are aligning and assimilating the shift? You might sense that the old is not resonating anymore, but the new is not in sight yet. People, places and circumstances might phase out or explode out of your life. What you once appreciated (e.g. certain teachings, traditions, books, media, food, clothes, people and places), is rather off putting now. This can be disturbing and unsettling, no doubt. But be assured, you are not alone with this phenomenon.

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